i don`t want this to end <3

today was a good day. yayyy.

theo called (: aww he remembered when i was going to UCLA :D & he called me long distance. wheee. i`m happy. & i`m typing this while he`s telling me about his white house visit. sighhh. <3

oh dear. i like two boys..
both are so amazing in different ways.
but i`ve liked one since sophomore year? kindaa...

anyways..tomorrow UCLA! yeah i was supposed to check in today but i didn`t finish packing in time. hahaha. i`m always late nowadays. & i didn`t want to be late cuz i`d be the last one and shit. so might as well just go tomorrow and blend with the boarders. my parents are mad though haha. whatever. ooh i`m kinda excited yet nervous!

yay i`m happy. i`m on good terms with everyone before i leave. i hope you guys missss me ): haha. i will most likely have internet access & like i`ll have my cell so call meeee // i`ll call people haha.

byeeeee<3

will be at UCLA from july29-aug5. taking graphic design. i don`t know if i`m excited or not. i don`t feel like leaving anymore. blah. & packing is a bitch. once again i have 4 bags of my crap. so now i have to unpack & CHOOSE. like eeny`meeny miney mo! ugh. & start all over again. geez. i suck at this.

i`ve made things harder for myself. I AM SO STUPID. what did i fucking do?
my only regret...

thank you bernard reyes..for being my brother. for saving me. i love you.
thank you ismael yambot..for listening. for making the effort. for caring.
& thank you everyone else..

i don`t think i`ll be able to talk to anyone for a while. not allowed by parents.
i just hope nothing changes like they have this past month
and i just hope no one would leave my side. ):
some people already have. it really hurts.


thankful. for what i have. for life.

i`m sorry..mainly to my parents..
& to anyone else i disappointed.

from tarot.com. okay, so i`m obsessed with `scopes.

The Moon in Aquarius sets you apart from the crowd, even when you're right in the middle of it. You can appear cool and easygoing, but your mind is likely to measure every emotion, which tends to keep passion in check. Displaying strong feelings is probably not easy for you, even if that's what you're sensing inside yourself. You are probably much more private than you appear. You tend to appear pretty open, so it seems like you're highly accessible, which you are… but more on a mental than emotional level. You have ideas, explanations and well-defined theories to describe your behavior as if you were talking about someone else. Yet being intimate and personal goes beyond language, which tends to be less familiar and more uncomfortable territory.

Motto: "Give me some space."
Greatest Strength: Not getting hung up in the small stuff [wrong?]
Possible Weakness: Not letting others know about your needs

 

fairly accurate..

my whole body hurts. my head. my throat. my eyes. my stomach. my back.
i think i`ll just sleep the whole day tomorrow.
i hope i don`t wake up.

sigh.
i don`t even know why i feel so sad.

i love my schedule this year [:  <33

1 latin iv (honors) - duff
w/ emily + the rest of the latin girls

2 precal (honors) - nish

3 religion iv - pariante
w/ diane, emily

4 physics - buxman
w/ diane, torie

5 AP environmental science - mary
w/ izzy uy

6 YEARBOOK [: - thompson
w/ stef, grace

7 english - ross
w/ torie, lexi l

HOW FUCKING LAME! I HAVE NO CLASSES WITH KC?!